dylan was sleeping in puo-puo and gong-gong's bed and at first he said the ceiling looked like stars, and then he changed his mind and said that the the ceiling looked hairy (mao-mao). such an observant son.
so i've brought the boys home to seal beach to spend some quality time with the grandparents because it will be difficult to find the time when i go back to work. i can't seem to shake that sentiment of not being ale to find time to do things important to me when i go back. my to do list is getting shorter, but i'm not confident that i'll be getting a A for excellence for its completion by the time i return to work. there are some key moments of realization i've had on this maternity leave:
1) what i want does not correlate with reality. ex. i want to be able finish packing in 90 min, but in reality it will take 3 hours. ex. I want to loose all of my baby weight in less than 6 months, but in reality it will take probably more like 9-12 months.
2) i really need to focus on the present moment. too much of my focus is spent reflecting/lamenting about the past, of which i cannot change, and or concerned/pensive about the future. like the book says, you need to be in the moment to the extent of almost having an out of body experience, as if you were dying in that moment.
3) i need to be more grateful and express more gratitude everyday.
4) i need to be more useful and productive as it relates to our family household.
these are a few...and i'm sure there's more.
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