the list

so it's my last day of maternity - another run for the "best days of my life". it was pretty amazing. brian said he was proud of me for what I accomplished. thought i would lay out my initial list.

completed:
get peanut's art framed:
hang evan's picture in the nursery
clean/organize office
buy twin mattress, furniture, and sheets
go to carmel and take the boys to the aquarium
read 5 books: the heart of a woman; where the heart is; parenting without borders; unconditional parentings; simplicity parenting *i think i finished this
lose 20+ lbs.
sign dylan and evan for classes
LA/Oregon/NY/Hawaii trip
fix the tv/av issue
train annie
go to the dentist
berkeley day
juice photography session
portola valley storytime
dream drawer organization
kids clothing organization
CD/DVD organization
touch up paint
update trust/will

still TBD:
hang peanut's art piece in the bathroom, as well as his bootie photograph
set up dylan's room
complete dylan's baby book
evan's baby book
plan 40/70/40 bday trip
complete 2 art projects
grocery/meal planning
childproof the house
stanford events/classes
livermore outlet
gilroy gardens
shoe closet organization

What i'm most proud of is i feel like just within the last week of so, my relationship with dylan has improved. we can have lengthly conversations in mandarin, and the other day he pretended that the banana was a cell phone, said his name was dylan and that he's bilingual. that is what is one of more heart-breaking aspects about going back to work tomorrow.
yesterday was a special day with dylan, as i took him to music class (very underwhelming at the menlo community center), went to keplers to read a book, and then took the train to meet brian for lunch. he was so excited about taking the train. he still talks about it, about how we rode the train 2 times, about how the train i take the work has stripes, and how the train we took yesterday didn't have stripes. i will remember this day for the rest of my life.

and then there is evan - my snuggle bum, full of love and light. i've been feeding him skin to skin recently and i make sure to give him his full body massage after this baths. i just can't believe that i won't be able to snuggle with him whenever I want to. my last today was pretty productive: dailey method, went to target to return bedsheets and xmas gifts, bought D some cars plates/cups/utencils for Vday, took a soul class, got my juicery, went to sign the trust documents, bought D some Vday candy, went to dragers, packed away my maternity clothes, taught annie how to make the salmon, went for my final walk with evan in the neighborhood. every day this week has been rather emotional. maybe psychologically i'm trying to brace myself for the worst, so that my future reality won't be that bad. Or maybe I'm just completely obsessed with spending time with my boys.

i need to sign off for my last snugs/feed with evan. tearing up already.

Note: need to write about my trip to socal