anticipation

so i still think this baby is a girl. i didn't have the dark line down my belly like i had with musubi and dylan, it's there, but it's much fainter and didn't come about until much later in the pregnancy. i'm like a beluga whale, HUGE, have gained over 60 pounds, the double, if not triple chins are in full effect, the pregnancy has been difficult and did i mention how amazing the cerclage is, but how painful it was after the medication wore off? i'm still on the fence is if that was more painful than postpartum with dylan. I remember gripping the handle within the car and writhing in pain when dad drove me home. brought back memories of my dislocated shoulder, but there's something inherently more painful with crotch pain, than pain in other areas. but these are the joys of pregnancy, right?

so i wonder if i'm right. as of tonight, brian thinks that it's a girl. my dad thinks that it's a boy and he's so sure of himself and dr. katz mentioned last week that he thinks we should still have another. does he know something we don't? one pregnancy, one baby at a time. brian says he hopes that it's a girl because he doesn't know if i can handle another pregnancy.

other things that i'm looking forward to:
-non-labored breathing
-throwing out my holy, parachute panties
-not wearing the same clothes over and over again
-OYSTERS and champagne
-japanese food
-nice glass of red wine
-dare i say this, getting back into shape, more specifically my thighs not touching
-shoe shopping, as i fear that my sasquatch feet won't go back....

and my absolute thing that i'm looking forward to? inhaling the scent of our milk drunk baby as he/she snuggles on my chest for a nap. there's nothing better than that.